May 12, 2015

Bye, pa

Ezra Loke
Beloved husband and father
November 30, 1940 - May 11, 2015

What do I say about my dad? How do I compress a lifetime of thoughts and feelings into just a few minutes? I’m afraid that hard as I try, I will come up short.

My earliest story about him was the fact that he took time off to wait for my birth, but the stubborn girl I was, I waited till he absolutely had to go to a meeting outstation before making my appearance. As mom tells it, his first question on the phone call wasn’t if I was a girl or boy. That didn’t matter to him at all. Nope… what mattered was that I had 10 fingers and 10 toes and most importantly, he wanted to know if I had his nose.

While he wasn’t always available, due in part to pastoring churches outstation, I had no wants. I've thought on this subject for quite a while and I can’t come up with an instance where he’s ever said no to me. It could be something as simple as mentioning about trying my hand at getting Computer certification… this was trying, mind you, just to see if I’d like it, or something bigger like buying a laptop, or going to school in the US, or putting a down payment on a car, his response was always the same. “OK, do it!” It didn’t matter the cost, it was always, “OK, do it."

Dad loved us above all, but as a product of his generation, he was very reserved. One of the funniest moments was when I said “love you” to him over the phone. His response? “Thank you.” I told mom later that that was the weirdest response ever and boy, was I shocked and surprised when the next time I said “love you” he said, “love you too.” This was years and years ago, and has been our ritual to end phone calls ever since. The last 2 visits to the US, he teared up each time before leaving. Those tears broke my heart more than anything else has ever done… till now.

One of my most cherished memories was him staying up past 11pm the first time I went out with a group of friends as a teenager. Dad was an early bird, you see, and that meant that he was always in bed by 9pm, but that night and the night before I got married, were the 2 nights he didn’t keep to his schedule. I remember asking him why he was still up the night before my wedding, and he said “yow tit mm se tuk” (a little hard to let go). I had teased him about how he shouldn’t be since after the wedding his son-in-law would be staying in his house for another week instead of his daughter leaving.

Dad was always cool and collected, even in the face of imminent danger as scary as Disneyworld rollercoaster rides. His was always the only peaceful face on the pictures captured by the ride cameras. He was a pillar of strength with a spine of steel. There was nothing he couldn’t do once he’s set his mind to it. With stage 4 cancer that had invaded his prostate, bones, spinal cord, lungs, and brain, he was still driving outstation for sermons and carrying boxes of books… God’s work was that important to him.

I am the person I am today because of dad and mom. They taught me to have faith that surpasses all understanding to always rely on God as my refuge and strength.

Dad carried my graduation picture in his wallet. Mom used to tease him that it was the only girl’s picture he ever carried in his wallet. I know he was proud of me and I’m proud of him. I’m proud to be his daughter and I will miss him terribly.

Bye for now, pa. Till I see you again, “love you."

April 18, 2015

Update and Stuff

First off, thanks Rosey and Minnie for alerting me to the fact that those #*$#@!^ websites spammed our IHSW list. I'm so pissed off!! I can't believe simply-linked has relaxed their security so much. I'll be looking for an alternative to host our links from next month, but as a result of those freaking spammers, I've closed this month's sign up.

I'm flying back to Malaysia tomorrow. It's a last minute trip as my dad hasn't been doing well as his cancer has gotten really aggressive. I just spoke to my mom and he's improved quite a bit today as compared to the last few days. I'm not sure how long I'll be there but I'm praying for a miracle. Please say a prayer for my dad as well. :)

This will be the first time hubby and I will be apart for more than a weekend and I'm having a tough time with it. Ugh!!! Oh... did I mention that the total travel time will be almost 31 hours? Double ugh!!

The one thing I'm looking forward to? Being able to spend time time catching up with your blogs and hopefully eating lots of good food. I miss the food there.

Happy IHSW everyone!!

April 14, 2015

April 2015 IHSW

What do they say about the best laid plans?

My grandiose plans of finishing Deco by May 7th this year has been thrown out like yesterday's very stinky garbage. Oh, it didn't get to that point right away but instead deteriorated slowly from "I want to finish it!" to "I don't feel like stitching!" to "Where are you, damn mojo!!!" to "Ah... forget it! I'm just going to watch tv!" LOL!! The last time I stitched? Almost a month ago!! *smacks forehead*

Any of you have some mojo to spare? ;)

I'm not sure if I'll be stitching this weekend either. Saturday is mostly going to be taken up with work-related stuff (ugh!!) which means Sunday will inherit all the chores. I've been toying with the idea of starting something new, but then y'all know that new starts and I aren't good friends. LOL!!

Have a wonderful IHSW!! *HUUUUUUGS!!!*

March 16, 2015

IHSW March 2015

I'm on a roll! We're only three months in to 2015 and I'm posting IHSW signup on time for the third time this year. :D Let's hope that the cycle continues. ;)
Thanks for all your encouragement about finishing Deco Spirits by May 6th! I shall surely try and had grand plans about finishing Water by yesterday. Alas, I was foiled by a mango and a peeler and had to stitch maimed for most of last night!! If I'd cut any deeper, I think I'd have lobbed off the tip of my finger! :O

So, one day pass my self-imposed deadline, Deco looks like this:

My sweet, sweet cousin, for whom I stitched Sabrina a few years ago, and for whom I'm planning on stitching Stargazer later this year or early next year, spent hours this past weekend baking chinese pineapple tarts and brought me some!! I was so excited to get it that I ate one before taking a pic for you guys. LOL!

You know what I'll be working on this weekend, how about you?

March 13, 2015


That's me after lunch today! My biz partner bought me an apple fritter (OMG, sooooo good!!!) and of course I had to eat it with coffee, which resulted in me going full on Tigger! LOL

Too bad I don't have anyone to bowl over! Any volunteers??? :D

Onward ho to stitching news!! I stitched!!! What do you mean you don't believe me?? Take a look at this honest, earnest face! Pics or it didn't happen??!! Well! I never!!! Fine! Be like that!!!

Told ya! :D

So, here's the thing... I'm stitching this for a dear friend who's visiting the beginning of May. I'd like to have it done by then so that I can send it home with her, as I get heart palpitations sending out my babies into the big, bad world care of the post office. To achieve that, I'll need to finish the current part by the 15th of this month and then allocating two weeks each for the three parts. I don't think it's doable. :( Ah well, we shall see.

Happy weekend, my dears!! Rawr!!!

March 6, 2015

Friday Randomness

I fully intended to post this earlier but time has just flown today. I also intended to post a quick WIP of Deco Spirits but I think you will all agree that it can wait. ;)

Happy Weekend, everyone! :D

February 23, 2015

IHSW and then some

It's amazing how much stuff one can get done when one's head (and other body parts) aren't buried in a game! ;)

I was going to stitch up a storm. We had plans to hunker down for Winter Storm 2015. It was cold, the winds were howling, and everyone was bundled up and ready for a low of 36F and windchill of 20F in South Florida. Oh yeah!!! ;) But then, Saturday came along and what do you know? Mid-70s weather and then BOOM!, low-80s for Sunday. This, of course, meant that I had to take care of and repot some of the orchids, cos this girl ain't gonna do that in mid-80s and higher heat. No sirree bob! (Wow, how did I turn all southern... yanks back.) I'll take some pics of the balcony when a couple more of the orchids start to bloom.

Deco Spirits got started but there's not much to show except for chunks of black here and there:

I also finally decided that it's about time Spring Knotgarden got framed. So, we went to HomeGoods and found a square wall art with white mat for $24.99 and then spent a few hours tearing the thing apart and framing SK into it. I swear they must use some sort of Super Super glue and a monster nail gun when they mass produce these frames! Sine I wasn't keen on a white mat on white fabric, I used dark chocolate ribbon to edge the inner part of the mat to create some visual interest. Not too shabby for less than $30, eh? :D